Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Marianne Williamson
In an act of sublime synchronicity this week, just as I was about to publish this post, I fell ill with a virus that can only have come from the deepest, darkest recesses of middle earth. Yep, it was that awful.
After weeks of feeling amazing and really appreciating every aspect of my life, I smashed headlong into my upper limit.
I ignored the signs for a while but by the time I was feeling ill enough to head to bed, I was definitely paying attention and I knew what it was – I couldn’t handle anymore of the good stuff. It was pushing all my buttons. My I’m not good enough, I’m not strong enough, I’m not valuable enough buttons.[Tweet “Illness is a sign of resistance. Understand that and you have a pathway back to good health.”]
So I used the technique I speak about in this video and I asked to be shown. To be shown the good that was trying to come in that I was clearly resisting with all my might.
When I saw the good, I saw a lifestyle that I’d love and which brought up all my fears. Fears of living that well. Fears that I don’t have what it takes to sustain it. Fears of all the good things in my life being taken from me. Fears of playing too big in the world.
None of these fears are logical. They never are. They’re just fears. I call them my old bag lady fears because when I really dig deep enough, that’s what sits underneath them all – a fear of living frightened, alone, cold and homeless on the street.
We all have old bag lady fears and I definitely recommend doing the work to clear them out, but today, let’s take a different approach. Let’s see if we can sidle up to the good stuff instead. Just let it get a bit closer and see if you can start to enjoy a happy co-existence. You don’t need to let it all in straight away, just get comfortable with the possibility of it first of all and then, when you’re ready, the good stuff will be ready and waiting to fill your life.
I’d love to hear your experiences in the comments below and for those who’d like the words of the invocation in the video, here it is:
I welcome you in now. Please take from me whatever this fear, this resistance, this blockage is, to you coming in. I want you. I welcome you. Show yourself to me. Give me hints of who you are, what you are. I will continue to stay open and my intention is not to block you. So work with me.